A time to grow up. to forget. to forgive. to dream. to learn to love all over again.

with lust filled eyes and jagged hearts

2006-10-01T13:54:00.000-03:00

Alright, so I'm really not a big fan of my English teacher. She decided to hand out this massive assignment on the one day that I miss class. I was gone to see the surgeon for God sake!
I mean really.
So anyway, there's two parts to the assignment and the first part is going to be like 4 pages, which pisses me off, because I really don't feel like writing this weekend. And then the second part is only a small essay but it still bothers me because she waits until half the class is missing and then hands out a huge thing on a Thursday and has it due the following Tuesday. But see, it's not like we can ask her questions because for three days in there we have no classes and she never responds to emails and I refuse to call her house because I'm pretty sure she'd hate me even more than she already does.
So here I am comparing and analysing The Chimney Sweeper (E & I) by William Blake and then I get to write an essay on The School Boy, also by Blake.

Ugh.

It's dealthy warm in here, I was freezing my ass off all morning so I put a fire on but now I'm sweating to death so I guess I'll just have to wait until it cools off in here and then hopefully I'll be alright.
Ou, turns out Mom's making Chicken Catiroree (sp?) for supper, so I'm pretty excited about that.

Oye, I suppose I'll go and try write this stupid english stuff and hope I don't break out into a fever before I finish.

and don't forget; a blizzard's coming in the year punk died.

Christ sake..

2006-09-23T18:09:00.000-03:00

OKay, so I'm alone. Like, alone alone.
My little "brother" has a real official girlfriend. Well, as official as it can be when they met last week and they already love eachother. Or so it says in their MSN names. I really shouldn't care this much.
But it makes me kinda sad, because I'm all alone.
I'm not upset about being all alone, I'm just wishing I wasn't the only one all alone. My best friend has a girlfriend. My other 2 best friends have boyfriends. I only really have 2 friends left that are alone, and one finds someone to hook up with every weekend anyway. And one doesn't really care, so she doesn't count.
Bleh.
I have aloneness issues.
Ugh.. it's going to be a bad night.

Would You Run Down Past The Fence?

2006-07-26T11:25:00.000-03:00

I would I tell you. I would I would I would.

Anyway, so here I am, dreading another afternoon spent wasting my time at work. I hate my job, I hate a lot of things right now, but my job mostly. I'm very glad that I have a whole 4 shifts (counting today) left before the whole place is locked up and closed for good.
It's time for a change.

It's time for a lot of changes in my life I think, It's long past time to be honest. But I think I'm ready now.
I'm boyfriendless which isn't really all that new to me.. It's been almost 6 months. But I honestly didn't accept it until we tried to be friends recently and he let me down when I needed him. I guess it was like the final time I'm going to let him get away with that in my life. I'm tired of being let down by boys when I need them. I don't like boys, they're confusing.
I mean, I know girls suck for mixed messages and all, I'll admit it, we can never make up our fucking minds. But we don't push someone in one direction and then turn around and snap further back the other way than they ever saw coming. I mean, one night he's all "it's stupid to cry over this I fucking love you I just don't know how to make this work" and then a week later I go to him saying that I need to talk to someone and he tries for a few minutes and then leaves without even telling me. I mean.. Christ.
Ugghhh.. I never was a people person, but you know, I tried for him.
Hell we even talked about getting back together!

Whatever.
I don't need a man.. Right?.... Right?
ugghh...

On the upside; I have a wonderfully golden tan from all the time I've been spending on the beach and the boat. And my hair is finally doing beautiful things with little to no help from me, which is a huge time saver. Which is wonderful, this is what summer is about, folks!
It is not, however, supposed to be about heartbreak and realizations that make you want to slit your wrists.

Anyway.. I guess I should go put some makeup on and clean out my truck a bit before I leave for work.

Hope you're all having a better day than I am!

Oye.

2006-07-13T20:56:00.000-03:00

Ugghh...
I have no right to be mad right now, but yet I am.
This feels the same as it did last year. Only I suppose it was a little different. But still.. just... ugh.
I want to cry.
And I can't even say why, because if someone particular happens to read this, I'll be told off something awful.

So.. I guess I'll suffer in silence; something I need to learn to do anyway.
Have a good one y'all

Oh Yeth

2006-07-12T13:38:00.000-03:00

As Alice Fletch might say; Oh Yeth.
It's been a great last few days, I was in Sydney for the weekend, lots of fun. Lots of new interesting sayings that no one would ever understand unless you were in the room.
Actually, unless you were in the room and happened to be awake, because if you're asleep, you miss it all!

Now, you der, gid in d'ewse 'fer yer fadder gits hewm er yer'll be grewnded fer weeks.

I'm thinking of rigging up the laser after work tonight and taking her out for a few hours, I haven't been on the water yet this year, and it's quite sad. I might have to dunk her once or twice before I get back into the swing of things, but I'm quite excited to do so!

And don't forget; we're all terminal cases.

Wow.

2006-07-03T11:04:00.000-03:00

So.. school is over. Wow, it feels so great.
Senior year next year. I'm fucking graduating. I can't believe it.
I still remember the very firsts; first day of school (in Sydney), first day here, first day at the second school here, first day of high school. First days with new friends and the first times with new experiences.
Oh my god the memories!
Senior year; A time to grow up, to forget, to forgive, to dream, to learn to love all over again.

So here we go; it's my last summer of being in high school.
It's all post-secondary after this. I'm going to kick university's ass.
I just left grade 11 with an 83 average in second semester. If I keep this up, I'll get scholarships up the ying-yang.
I'm a smart cookie, I'm just easily distracted. =)

So wish me luck, and experience this last year with me.
It's going to be a blast, boys. It's going to be hot.

Yes b'y.

Here we gooo....

Things I won't forget about this year

2006-05-31T17:37:00.000-03:00

Okay, I'm going to make a list of the most memorable things about this past school year as it slowly draws to a close.
But, first, I'd like to welcome my new baby cousin to the world! Alec Lewis, born on May 27, 2006.
I can't wait to see the little guy. Red hair and blue eyes, doesn't get much cuter than that, right? :)

Anyway, my list for this school year of things I won't forget...
(In no particular order I suppose)

- Jerry Burke watering the sods. (that was for you Kyle!)

- The Rememberance Day Long Weekend

- "Friggin' roarin' over here.", "hoot", "..... butch", "hey hey hey, you, with.. with the face.", "wait! wait! hey! stay there! hold on! *lays down* lets talk." ... and many others that go along with these.

- Getting my hand stuck in the patio door during my big thrasher.

- Catherine's bottle of wine.

- Thanksgiving Day Night

- When Sug shot Tupac. (Sug being me, yes, that means I shot Tupac!)

- Snuggle Buddies

- "Take the phone from her! Is she drinking and dialing?! TAKE THE PHONE FROM HER!!" - Coco

- The word, "tip".

- The night everything changed, it sucks that there's a pin-point moment.

- The first time I stepped on the new boat once we put it in the water.

OKay, so maybe to other people this list means nothing... but to me this is a synopsis of what I hope to remember about my second-last year of High School once I'm old. I hope to look back on these things and have the memories all come flooding back.
So, here's to new friends and old, times that we've lost, and feelings too.

And hey, if you remember any of these things too. Let me know.
I want to hear your spin on these stories.

This is tres tres interesting-- I swear

2006-05-26T18:43:00.000-03:00

Oh I lead an interesting life.. not.
I have no life. Well no, I'm alive, so techinically I do HAVE life.
Anyway...
There' s not much new I guess... Finished that history project and handed that in. I'm very disappointed in my 80% on my English test though... I know I did better than that and she won't give me the points.

I think my english teacher hates me.

But we started Animal Farm (Orwell) on Tuesday - due to Monday being a holiday ^_^ - and I really like that, it's a great read and it's really interesting if you're able to take the time to learn about the Russian revolution enough to make the connections. Hopefully I'll do better than an 80% on that test when we have it.

My biggest issue at the moment is that I'm very bored, all my friends are with their boyfriends or are working, which leaves me.. here.. talking to no one imparticular. Just generally being deathly bored. And I refuse to do homework on a Friday night <_<
And also, another issue, I smell like self tanner spray- which frankly as far as I can tell has changed nothing with the colour of my skin, which frankly, adds in no positive way to my mood.

Maybe I'll go for a drive and get a movie or something. Bleh.
I want to see that movie where that chick goes to her therapist and tells her all about her wild sexcapades with her new boyfriend who turns out to be the therapists son. But I can't remember the name of it, and because I wouldn't want to disturb my friends and their boyfriends, I have no means of finding out. Ah me.
I do have that Hamlet book I haven't read yet, maybe I'll start that tonight.

Anyway, enough of my boring everyone on the face of the Earth with my incessent (sp?) rambling.
I slap you all in the face, and bid you adieu. *tips hat*
(Oh, and I recently bought a very cute hat!)

La Vie Boheme

2006-05-16T20:22:00.000-03:00

Ugghh.. I hate school. I have this stupid Independant Study Unit Essay piece of shit due on Friday. 1500 words on Free Trade in Canada, 10% of my final mark, of course! Plus I have a math assigment due on Friday AND an English test tomorrow on Romeo and Juliet.
Seriously doesn't get much more fun than that.

Anyway, so I've been home alone for the last week. My parents went away to Toronto to stay with my cousin and his wife and daughter. It was fun, I got to be roomies with Anna (my oldest friend) and we had a little shin-dig on Saturday. I'll post pictures later this week after I've had time to get them developed and put on a disc. Of course my parent's took my digital camera away with them. So I've been doing it old school with some disposables. But disposable cameras are pretty fun, you can get cool coloured ones now, which is cool. Mine also had sparkles which was exciting!

Anna and I always manage to find something to get into, like lastnight, this guy a real nice drug dealer/all in all asshole type of guyhad the unfortunate experience of having his house brun down! Shocking I know. So we went and watched it burn down. Anna's Mom called us and told us it was happening because a friend of hers lives near there, so we jumped in the car (disposable cameras in hand!) and went to watch the place burn. It was actually pretty entertaining. We listened to the Talking Heads sing Burning Down the House the whole way home.

Anyway, so a little about me. Concidering this is my first entry and all I should probably introduce myself. Hi! I'm Kate. Well, that's not my ONLY name, not like Madonna or Cher or Oprah or anything. But thats what I call myself, that's what most of my friends call me. So you can too. I'm usually a fairly happy person aside from recently, it's been a rough few weeks. Well, I guess it's been more than weeks. About... well, since Valentines Day I guess, so months I guess would be more accurate. But we won't talk about that yet. I'll get there when I get there.
Let's see, I'm an only child. And no I'm honeslty not spoiled. I can say that because I'm not.
I love my friends, especially the remaining two people in a certain set of triplets. There's three of us you see, therefore we're triplets. But the hootest (yes, I said hootest) part is that only two of us are related at all. Anyway, these two guys can make me laug. Hands down no matter what's going on in my life these two can make me feel better. Well at least they've been able to thus far. These two are pretty awesome guys. It's cool to just feel totally free and just have fun whenever I'm with them. They have names of course, Liam (who I've concidered my brother since as long as I can remember) and Myles (a.ka Mielz, who I actually hadn't met until just this past September but that has no effect on how wicked it is to watch the Sauna Belt infomercial until 7 am with him) These two are leaving for Europe this weekend and then we're going to schedual a Ham and/or Jam for as soon as possible when they come home. Right boys? right.
Lets see... I love music. I'm officially hooked on the "Rent" soundtrack. I know every word thank you very much. It really is good music though. But I also love Coheed and Cambria very much, I'm going to have Claudio's babies, he just doesn't know it yet.
I like to joke around a lot, although I tend to get tounge-tied and totally lose when I'm saying. People usually laugh either way though =)
I actually completely changed the group of friends I spend time with this past school year. These guys are waaaay cooler than my old friends. Those guys were hoes. And even more recently I had the pleasure of meeting one of my new friend's (Jill) cousin (this being Paige, Jill's cousin is Paige). Paige is awesome. I love her! But she lives in Newfoundland so I dont ever get to see her. But that's cool because I'm going to go and visit her this summer for friggin' sure. (I'd say!)
Just so long as we don't stand too close together as the Earth might freeze over due to lack of sunlight. Eh, Paige? ;)
I love to sail too, my Dad and my Uncle actually just got a new boat together and that's due to go into the water this coming weekend so I'm very excited. And I love to travel, I think I might get the chance to go up to Toronto this fall actually which is cool.

Anyway, I'm out I suppose. Go try and do some more on this History Project.

And to sign off, I'll give you a little taste of Rent!
"... life is short babe, time is flyin'. I'm looking for baggage that goes with mine.."

how you take your heart and turn it off

2006-05-16T13:40:00.000-03:00

leave on repeat